Why become a spanko?

I have often been asked, what made you become someone who likes to be spanked. I dare say many people have differing reasons for embracing this life style. Is it because of some deep rooted trauma, you know the type of trauma a mass murderer is said to have undergone as a child or a wife beater, beaten by his father all laying the blame squarely on someone else's shoulders.
For me the only man to punish me since school is my adopted dad, my adopted mom, sadly has never taken me across her knee and blistered my butt, oh she has threatened to do the deed but as yet has still to do it.
I was raised in a matriarchal society, my father although very much the head of the home left the day to day running of the home to my mother, it was her and my older sister who used to discipline me. At boarding school because of my size tended to be mothered by all the lady teachers, add this to the fact that the rest of my class were at least a year to 18 months older than me. This meant that all my discipline with only one exception was given by the lady teachers or the house mother.
Due to lack of love and care, I tended to be very naughty because it got me attention, normally a OTK spanking or a caning, sometimes both, not the best type of attention but attention none the less.
As I became a man, the ethos was men don't cry, be a man!!!! and being a spanko meant you were weird, come on what normal man allows a woman to inflict pain on a man, especially a man's man, a sailor, so I buried all the wants and desires of being taken over my ladies lap and having my bare butt blistered by her using a hairbrush untill I cried and howled like the little boy I am